I've been finding it really hard to express myself to people. Some of them are just unwilling to listen. Others would love to hear what I have to say, but I have nothing to say to them. And some things I have to say to some people are grossly inappropriate. Other things are just so emotionally charged that it's hard to say them without crying or doing something embarrassing like that.
It's so frustrating. I feel like I can't think or write about anything else until I let some of my feelings out, so here it goes.
1. You treat me like shit. I go out of my way to help you because I feel so sorry for you and I unwillingly care about you, but you just take advantage of my kindness. You're only nice to people who are mean to you, and that's fucked up. I will not be mean to you. Nor will I let you treat me like shit. You will get nothing from me any more. Soon, I will think about you as little as you think about me, no matter how much you suffer.
2. You're one of the best friends I've ever had, and one of the best people I've ever met. I love spending time with you, and I love you. I hope you feel the same way about me, no matter what you may discover about me. You mean a lot to me.
3. I find you extremely attractive.
That feels like enough. Come back next time to see if I have written something substantial.
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